Chapter 12: The Only Ring I'll Ever Wear

I don't think I had ever been more nervous. Not my first performence on the Best of Both Worlds Tour or even when I kissed Nick Jonas for the first time. During those I was playing a character, now finnally I'm playing myself. Jade, dirty blond hair, and green conveses with black and white cheackered laces.

Theres hundreds of people out there. All waiting for me to take the stage. All waiting in the crowed ballroom of my Aunt's hotel. Another thousand are waiting on the lawn hoping that there'll cautch a glimpse of me.

I look at myself in the mirror ,breathing deeply. "Jade you can do this. You've been infront of larger crowds, you've delt with more than this."
But the thing is Jade Murry had...Jade had never really been introduced to the public.

The press can take one look at me and say of look she changed her hair color again, but maybe i can tell people how much I've changed. It's not just a hair color, it's a thought process. Where I figure out whats really important in life.

Then I take another deep breath and step on to the makeshift stage. The applase and screams are there but it feels different now. That they should be screaming for what I have to say not just my image.

"Hey everyone. Thank you. Thank you for being here. I've changed alot the last couple of months. At times I've been a real hormonal brat and at others I feel in love. I felt like everything was changing so fast, my hair color, my style, my life, my love. But after all that I finnally discovered what was important to me. My fans, everyone that supports me and that shares a common intrest with me. To have me succeed as a person, not as a teen icon. But to succeed and grow in acting and singing and just being myself. I want to do so much that Disney can't offer me. I want to be a serious actress a serious singer. I want to be taken seriously for the first time in my life. And that is why when my first contract is up at the end of the month, I'm leaving Disney and Hollywood Records."

A gasp goes up from the crowds and the magazine reporters scribbe furiously into their pads.

"I've talked to some other record companies and been to some movie auditions I've got calledback for. I'm ready to change for the better. To live life and learn. In about 2 months it's going to be my 16th birthday. I've already decided what I want to do with my life. I have some special guest here. Nick come on out!"

Nick Jonas enters the stage and screams and cheers expload from the audience, we both wait until it dies down.

"When he got here this morning, we fell in love all over again. Because I finnally have discovered who I am now. Theres no pressure, no one forcing us to be apart or be togather. Nick you wanted to ask me something?" I say turing to him, to find him on one knee.

"I never want to be with any one eles Jade. I'm telling you that I love you and that I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Jade will you marry me?"

He holds up a dimond and Jade ring inclosed in a box. I must of started crying from happiness and the perfection of the moment. I didn't notice the gasps or the crying in the audience or even the "yes!" shouting from the audience.

"Nick. I love you so so much. Yes, oh my gawd. Yes!" Shakely I take my purity ring off my finger and throw it into the audience. Then with his help I slip the engagement ring on my finger. And then I kiss him. Because he's the only person who will ever make me feel like this. The only one I'll ever be with. My love, Nick.

And nothing is ever going to change that.

Because never again is someone going to Change Me.

The End


Jade's Note: I loved writting Jade's Story. I can't belive it's over....I could write another book if you want....but I'll need some pretty fantastic comments and feedback and everything! Also please send me an email if you want more: howdytex2@aol.com
Also I have a mibba account just go to (mibba.com) and serch JadeMurry and you should find some other stories I'm working on there + If you want to read the first book of Jade's Story again.
Wow thanks for reading till the end. When I started this in April I never knew I could write. I was just bored in my closet. I had never even met the Jonas Brothers when i started. It all started with a 25 page fan letter (which I never sent.) And here we are. Standing at the finsh line togather. I want to become a writer now. Untill I wrote this story I never though I could be one...but now thanks to all of you I can be one. I love you and the Jonas Brothers, and everyone eles who made this story possible. Including my Old 8th grade Science Teacher, Mr. Roggers (i used to think of most of my ideas in his classroom.)

Jade's Story is forever more dedicated to my best friends Kristen (Crissy) and Lauren (Elisa) and my orginal ravid readers Marissa and Veronica.

Again I love you. And I'll continue into another book if I get enough feedback.
Goodbye for now!
-Jade Murry

Chapter 11: Places Everyone

Jade's Note: Sorry guys I hate doign this to ya'll but I seriously need a comment each time to get me to ubdate. The quciker you comment the quicker I can get up new chapters!

"Hey Mitchel, I can't breath." I say after a while of being squezzed to tight.

"Oh sorry Jade." He says and laughs realsing me. "Do you know what your going to do?" he asks.

"Yes but I'm going to need a couple things." I say smiling at him.

"How fast do you think it's going to take you to run to Target and get as many bottels of hair dye remover as you can."

"I was thinking about that, brown hair isn't really you."

I playfully nudge him. "How long?"

"Well it depends on if I get reconized..." I laught.

"Okay about five to ten minunets."

"Okay good."

"What are you planning Jade?"

"Well....i'm going behind Disney's back and making a huge public apology, clearing up all my rumors, getting back in touch with my fans, getting my hair back to it's normal color, about to put on some converses and skinny jeans, and about to tell the world that I love Nick and that someday I want to Marry him."

"Okay...." says Mitchel thinking it over. Then laughing he says "I call some of the media on the way over there, whens this thing going to happen."

"Tommarow." I say dashing over to my webcam and hitting record.

"Hey Guys! It's Jade sorry i haven't updated in a while! But tommarow all my fans in flordia I'm throwing a kinda huge party in Orlando Flordia, at the Nilson Hotel." I said think of my aunt and how she is going to be shocked to hear about the party I invited thousands of fans to at her hotel.
"So I really hope to see you there! I'm going to try and meet every single one of you! And also maybe sing a couple songs, there will also be a public interview with alot of major news stations and magazines so please come! I love you guys so much. See you tommarow!" Then clicking upload to youtube. I rush and give Mitchel one last hug.

"I gotta call my Aunt before they start camping on the lawn." I smile. Things are finnally falling into place.

Chapter 10: I'm Back

The clock ticking was getting to me. The tick tock, tick tock, tick tock. The slow passing of time in a empty hotel room. The first time in months I had been left alone, the first time in months I felt completly vunurable and helpless and alone.

Just as that though passed through my head someone came back into my life. There was a knock at my door.

"Jade. Are you in there? Jade open the door." I didn't allow myself to reconize the familair voice for if it wasn't him I would of got up my fragile hopes. I swung open the door of my hotel room and ran into his open arms. Mitchel.

"Mitchel you don't know how happy I am to see you!" I say clutching on to him in the narrow hallway. "Aww Jade what have they been doing to you!" He says leading my back inside and playing with my curled newly brown locks.

"You haven't seen the tabloids? Or the news articles? Or anything? How the world is not only passing me off as a slut but as a crazy broken hearted one?"

"Forget about the Tabloids." Says Mitchel siting down with me on my bed. "No one deserves to live through the pain and suffering you do every single day. No one deserves to have a diease that makes them prick their finger 12 times a day, no one deserves to have to deal with their parents divorcing, no one deserves to deal with the pain of sharing their boyfriend with the entire world, no one deserves to work 24 hours a day- 7 days a week for a company that you sell your soul too. You do that all, Jade. Every single day, you struggle with all these things and more. It may not seem like it, but people respect you for it. People will blow their saving on Meet and Greet passes just to spend a few moments with you. People would do anything for you."

"But not the ones that matter."

"Jade look at me." He says turing my face to face his. "We grew up togather. Wheres the Jade I know? The one that never let anything bother her? That always found the postive, the light at the top of the sea, the water glass is half full. Where's my girl?"

I look at him with my dark blueish eyes the one thing that has never changed and I look into his dark brown ones and I find who I used to be reflected in his eyes. Finnally I saw how much I had given away of myself to become this perfect figure I was never going to be. I saw how much I had tried to be the perfect daughter and the perfect rolemodel and the perfect girlfriend, untill nothing I said was real anymore because I was trying to be someone I'm not.

No wonder, Nick and I's relationship isn't working out! Because I'm not the same person he fell in love with!

Thats it! I just need to stop pertending and get back to me. The real me.

"I'm right here." I say, finnally saying the truth again for the first time in such a long time.

Mitchel smiles and hugs me. I hug back because finnally I feel like I can set everything right again. That I can truly be number 1 again. That everything is going to fall into place.

Watch out World. Jade Murry is Back!


Jade's Note: Next Chapter out when I get one Comment at LEAST!

Chapter 9: The Princess Dosn't Stand a Chance

The tour ended for me with 3 stops still left on the tour. Disney said I needed to "rest." Which really meant I was sent to Orlando Flordia to get my act together. Get over Nick. Do some publicity stuff and meet and greets and once again become a new and improved cute disney princess. The act that pushed them to the edge was the dying of my plantium blond hair, a dark brown. Nick loved my hair and I felt the need to destroy anything he loved about me. My gutair was thrown to a homeless man on the streets, my converses auctioned on ebay for more than a thousand dollars a pair. All my dozen of song books were strewn across my hotel room the night after I didn't come onstage. I just sat in the same dressing room and cried, people beged me to come out. They threatened me through the locked door that I would lose everything. That my family would lose everything. Didn't they know that I'd already lost everything? That this was just the numb shell of a life-less person stubling through a fantasy life. Everyone tried to convince me to come out, except the one that could either make me want kill myself or make me want to jump into his arms. They threatended me with worthless threats. I was a face of disney even if they dropped me I would still be famous. And if they dropped me I would just have to carter to someone eles's demands. They broke the lock and thats when Disney sent me to "rest." I didn't want to talk to the thepests they forced on me. I don't want to talk about the billions of things that are wrong about my life and I don't want someone pointing out what they think are perks when they have no experience with these "perks" to begin with. I had lost weight because I didn't feel like eating. Nick always loved that I was a size 1-2 and I was slipping fast into a 0. They keep telling me it wasn't healthy but I saw that in their eyes they were happy I was getting skinner. Being skinny ment I could fit into costumes better and just make people feel worse about themselves so they buy magazines to read more about me, I can just see the headline. "Jade Murry the thought to be anoroxic teen superstar going crazy over breakup with long term boyfriend Nick Jonas." Great even thinking his name makes me want to hit something or go take nude photos and post them on the web just to feel apreciated again. I'm right back at square one, the same way Miley was. I made the same mistakes she did, almost exactuly. And didn't I always think I was better than her? Well now shes the Queen and I'm just a princess that dosn't stand a chance.

PS: I won't post the next chapter untill I get one comment at LEAST!

-Jade Murry

It's Me that Shouldn't Be Loved

I couldn't take it back. It hung there. Dangled in the air, just taunting me. The slience settled on Nick and weighed him down. It was horrid to watch, him collapse on the inside. His eyes filling up with water making those eyes of his turn into liquid chocolete. His hurt, his angish, my feelings so twisted and masked by anger I felt nothing. Nothing. For three minunets my words chained him to the ground, unmoving, unmasked. He was the Nick I had always wanted to know. The person hidden in all those publicity pictures and funny comments. But never had I imagined I'd see him a broken man. Never had I imagined that I would be the one slowly breaking him till he snaped in half. The fights all increasing. Each time it's random and it's always me. Me who jumps to the wrong conclusion. Me who came to his bedroom. Me who was caught cheating on him by the press. ME WHO TOLD HIM I NEVER CARED ABOUT HIM! It's always ME! The person who the magazines always say is so humble is nothing but a bitch who thinks everything needs to revolve around her. Nick is too good for this. He shouldn't love me. No one should love me. My parents don't. Max dosn't. Mitchel dosn't. And Nick....shouldn't either.

Anger Makes Us do Stupid Things

I'm mad at everyone. My brother for just announcing to all of America that not only is his band Metro Station Touring with Me on MY summer tour but that he though my boyfriend was a jerk. My mother for deciding to pertend to care about me by sending me a "care package" composed of all things "Smile Bright" her new publicity client apperently, along with a letter saying how she hoped I would wear these things and think of her. I'm angry about letting everything get to me. I'm angry at Mitchel for never talking to me. I'm mad about how Joe is so ungreatful for Crissy. And I'm angry at Elisa and Kevin for having such a perfect relationship. I'm angry at my parents living in seperate citys and seperate houses and how they never talk and how they aren't even united by loving their kids because they DON'T! I'm angry at how Crissy hasn't emailed me back in a week and how Elisa is in Canada shooting a movie. I'm angry because I can't even trust Selena anymore and how Demi likes Selena more than me. I'm angry that supposally I have the most perfect boyfriend in the world and I hardly ever get to see him when I'm not on stage. I'm angry about how everyone's always telling me what to wear. And about how I hardly get any sleep and never have time to study and how everyone is trying to sell me off as some Platium Blond avertising board; WHEN I AM NOT!
"Jade?" asks someone though the dressing room door, I'm so angry I can't even reconize the voice.
"Go Away!" I say hunched up in a conor desprete for some alone time.
Nick walks in, paying no attition to my pleas for being alone. And suddenly once again I'm mad at him. More mad then I have ever been mad at someone.
"Sweet just talk to me" he says walking nearer to me, caustiously.
I expload. "Leave me alone. I hate you!"
My words hung in the air and Nick froze. I saw the hurt come into his brown eyes and the livliness drain away. I wanted to take back what I said but I knew there was no way I could make those words disapear. So they hung there, suspended in the air. Tangled in a web of emotions and relationships.
Nick let one word slip from his mouth, like a whisper "Jade." The anger in me had not died though, some insane force had taken over my mind. I wanted to hurt him, to make him feel the pain I was feeling. Like as in hurting him would make the pain better or go away.
"I don't care about you."

Chapter 6: Wedding Dress Perfect

So it pays to be perfect. So perfect that if a eyebrow hair is out of place someone plucks it for you. Perfect as in no one can ever take a bad picture of you and publish it because they will get sued. Perfect as in your record topping the charts and your hotel rooms always having a note signed by the owner saying he hopes you enjoy your stay. Perfect as in you find your self flipping though wedding catologes aimlessly looking at the pretty white dresses that would look amazing even with the platinum blonde hair. Perfect as in you would be killed by Jonas Brother Fans that would disapove of you ever marrying the youngest jonas brother at 15. By the way is it even illegal to get married at 16? Maybe in canada? I shouldn't even be thinking of this, I should be concentrating on what the lighting director is telling me about the lights for the concert tonight. But all I can think about is the glint of the promise ring on my hand and the curly head I see practing on the stage 100 feet below.
"Jade? Do you understand?" "Yes, yes of course." I stutter in reply. If the lighting guy wasn't in tottal love with me he might of had the decency to roll his eyes at my lastluster response, insted he just went. "Oh okay do you want me to go over it again?" "No it's okay I'll just see you later." I say struglling to make my way of the catwalk and down the winding steps in the high heels that Tiffany insisted on this morning. I miss my converses. I made my way to the stage carefully trying not to interupt resheral. But much like I am with Nick, Nick immedally stoped singing and gaped at me as soon as I smiled at him.
"Jade do you feel the need to interupt us?" asks Joe smilling as in a jokey way but his eyes turing to stone. He's been a little cold to me ever since I outright told him I didn't like him as more then a friend. Which again is just awkward!
"Do you mind if I borrow Nick for just like maybe an hour? Please?" I say to the tour director. "Fine the set was almost finshed any way." "Thanks!" I say direting my 100 watt smile at the director and saving a special one for Nick.
"Just you two lovebirds go." Said Joe still smiling like he was joking but the cold edge not abstant from his tone.
"So you wanted to spend some alone time?" Says Nick pressing against me as soon as we made it to my abandoned dressing room. It was hard to resiste him when he was like this but there was a reason I needed him. "Um...can you please stand with me in the meet and greet?" I say grabbing his hand and squezzing it and putting on my puppy dog face. "I'll love you forever and ever!" He laughed and said "Don't you already?" "Maybe..." I said brushing my lips to his the second before the door banged open. Summer had gotten so used to Nick, she now acts like he isn't even there. "Your late for your meet and greet." "I'm comming!" I say brushing my lips against his again. "I'm comming to!" Nick mumbles. "Great..." says Summer in a sarcastic way. Then she reaches for her walkie talkie and screams into it. "Get extra security in Jade's meet and greet, Nick will be there too." Then without pausing she yells at us "Stop making out and get your selfs down there!"

Jade Note: Sorrry again for not posting! And if you've stayed thanks for being pacient. I do love love love comments!
-Jade