Chapter 10: I'm Back

The clock ticking was getting to me. The tick tock, tick tock, tick tock. The slow passing of time in a empty hotel room. The first time in months I had been left alone, the first time in months I felt completly vunurable and helpless and alone.

Just as that though passed through my head someone came back into my life. There was a knock at my door.

"Jade. Are you in there? Jade open the door." I didn't allow myself to reconize the familair voice for if it wasn't him I would of got up my fragile hopes. I swung open the door of my hotel room and ran into his open arms. Mitchel.

"Mitchel you don't know how happy I am to see you!" I say clutching on to him in the narrow hallway. "Aww Jade what have they been doing to you!" He says leading my back inside and playing with my curled newly brown locks.

"You haven't seen the tabloids? Or the news articles? Or anything? How the world is not only passing me off as a slut but as a crazy broken hearted one?"

"Forget about the Tabloids." Says Mitchel siting down with me on my bed. "No one deserves to live through the pain and suffering you do every single day. No one deserves to have a diease that makes them prick their finger 12 times a day, no one deserves to have to deal with their parents divorcing, no one deserves to deal with the pain of sharing their boyfriend with the entire world, no one deserves to work 24 hours a day- 7 days a week for a company that you sell your soul too. You do that all, Jade. Every single day, you struggle with all these things and more. It may not seem like it, but people respect you for it. People will blow their saving on Meet and Greet passes just to spend a few moments with you. People would do anything for you."

"But not the ones that matter."

"Jade look at me." He says turing my face to face his. "We grew up togather. Wheres the Jade I know? The one that never let anything bother her? That always found the postive, the light at the top of the sea, the water glass is half full. Where's my girl?"

I look at him with my dark blueish eyes the one thing that has never changed and I look into his dark brown ones and I find who I used to be reflected in his eyes. Finnally I saw how much I had given away of myself to become this perfect figure I was never going to be. I saw how much I had tried to be the perfect daughter and the perfect rolemodel and the perfect girlfriend, untill nothing I said was real anymore because I was trying to be someone I'm not.

No wonder, Nick and I's relationship isn't working out! Because I'm not the same person he fell in love with!

Thats it! I just need to stop pertending and get back to me. The real me.

"I'm right here." I say, finnally saying the truth again for the first time in such a long time.

Mitchel smiles and hugs me. I hug back because finnally I feel like I can set everything right again. That I can truly be number 1 again. That everything is going to fall into place.

Watch out World. Jade Murry is Back!


Jade's Note: Next Chapter out when I get one Comment at LEAST!